depressants- continued

Antianxiety drugs

" minors" : this term is used to distinguished from the " major tranquilizers"

compounds such as chlorpromazine( Thorazine) which is used to manage psychosis

The first minor tranquilizer is meprobamate( Miltown/ Equanil)

The most popular appeared in 1960s: benzodiazepines: 

• chlordiazepoxide( Librium)
• diazepam( Valium)
• triazolam( Halcion)
• alprazolam( Xanax)
• lorazepam( Ativan)
• temazepam( Restoril)
• clonazepam( Klonopin)

compared with barbiturates, benzodiazepines are safere in overdose and somewhat less dangerous in combination with alcohol

Flunitrazepam(Rohypnol) is a remedy for insomnia and pre-anesthtic medication for patients undergoing surgery. It is more potent and lasts longer than Valium. Availvale in the black market under the name " roofies". Users used this to enhance the effect of other drugs

It is very difficult to wean of benzodiazepines, since withdrawal is unpleasant and dangerous

GHB( Gammahydroxybutyrate)

GHB is an endogenous downer made in small amount in the brain as a metabolite of the sedatiuve neurotransmitter GABA

Synthetic GHB stimulates the pituitary gland to release growth hormone, which can help convert fat to muscle.

A teaspoon of GHB dissolved in warm water and taken on an empty stomach can cause the effect akin to alcohol and methaqualone intoxication

GHB can cause nausea and marked incoordination along with " hypersomnolence": a kind of temporary stupor in which people can stop breathing for periods.

GHB increases rather than suppresses dreaming. in this aspect, it is different from other depressants.

General Anesthetics:

gases or volatile liquids administered by inhalation through a mask placed over the face or tubes in the throat

Like all depressants, anesthetics can killby shutting down the respiratory centre and other vital functions.

CHroroform is the oldest form, but it is toxic so it is no longer used

Ether/ Diethyl ether : is still used before surgery.  But it can be explosive from accidental sparks or flames..

Nitrous oxide only has a faint odor, non toxic and nonflammable. does not produce complete loss of consciousness . Often used by dentistry orminor surgery

Some people havetried to get nitrous oxide directly from pressurized tanks, whipping cream. But people may get frostbites of the nose and the mouths of they attemptto do it incorrectly. Asphyxiation by breathing straight from face mask( without any supply of oxygen) may causedeath.

Narcotics

narcotics are drugs that produce stupor( state of reduced sensitivity) by depressing brain function, but their depressant function is different from sedative-hypnotics or general anesthetics

The parent of all narcotics is opium, a dark gummy solid made from opium poppy. As the flower wither, the green pods, which contain many tiny seeds, begin to ripen and swell. If the pods are ripened fully, they turn brown and dry. While still unripe, the pods contain a milky juice that can becollected by letting it ooze from the knife cuts. When dried, this ooze is crude opium.

Many oral preparations of opium were made in the past. Two that survive into our own time are paregoric, a dilute tincture ofopium cimbined with camphor, and a deodorized tincture ofopium, formerly known as laudanum

Crude opium is very bitter and contains more than twenty different drugs, of which the most important is morphine.

In 1803, morphine is prepared as a soluble white soluble poweder that can be mixed with water for injection

Codeine( methylmorphine) is another natural constituent of opium. More active by mouth than other narcotics, is a weaker pain reliever than morphine and doctors frequently prescribe it to treat moderate pain.

Heroin( diacetyl morphine) is more potent than morphine: producing the same effect in smaller dose.

Drugs derived from morphine and other opium compounds are opiates. Demerol( purely synthetic). In general, all opiates produce the same effect, only differ in their potency.

these generally act on the brain and bowel. THese paralyze the bowel, so narcotics can be used to treat diarrhea. Prolonged use induces chronic constiapation.

Tolerance for addictive dose of sedatives-hypnotics develop faster than their lethal dose- making them more easily overdose- compared to that of narcotics. Heroin overdose death is more often due to poor control of the drug.

Intravenous heroin use is most addictive due to its high potency and short duration

oxycodone: a semisynthetic opiate: blended with aspirin as Percodan and with acetaminophen as Percocet

Oxycotin: a more potent and time released version ofoxucodone.

methadone is a form of heroin maintenance. It blocks the effect of heroin, so gives junkies little motivation to shoot heroin. Oral methadone is an addicting narcotic but gives little euphoria.

A new semisynthetic opiate is called  buprenorphine has beenused for heroin addiction. It blocks the high of heroin and can be given in higher doses without suppressing breathing.

 

depressants

lower energy level of the nervous system, reducing sensitivity to outside stimulation and, in high doses, inducing sleep.

types:

Sedative-hypnotics : alcohol, sleeping pills and anti anxiety drugs

Alcohol= ethyl alcohol, ethanol

Production of alcohol depends on yeast, which feeds on sugar, making alcohol and Carbon dioxide as by products.

To grow and multiply, yeast cells need water, warmth, sugar.

At high doses, alcohol is a poison that kills the yeast that makes it as well.

Natural sources of sugar available were fruits and honey

Starch may be a source of sugar as well. But enzymes must contain starch into sugar first.

In standard beer making, sprouted barley( malt) is used to convert the starch of grain into sugar so that yeast cam grow.

Distilled alcohol is made by heating wine and cooling and condensing the vapors into another container. This process increases the content of alcohol from 40 to 50 percent

Scotch abd bourbon whiskeys are made from beerlike preparation of grain

Rum is distilled from fermented molasses

vodka is diluted ethyl alcohol, so is gin

The stronger the drink, the faster the blood concentration level rises

As with many other psychotic drugs, the mood onset depends on the situation.

As alcohol concentration increases, it depresses more and more of the nervous system, producing familiar symptoms of drunkenness. People become drunk in very different ways, depending on theirpersonalitites

DEPENDENCE: is a serious matter: marked by extreme craving, tolerance and withdrawal.  Delirium tremens( the DTs) is the worst form of withdrawal, may even cause death, which is worse than narcotics.

cirrhosis of the liver, loss of sexual potency, inability to digest food are someof the problems

barbiturates and other sleeping pills " downers"

the first barbiturates= barbital 

2nd one= phenobarbital appeared in 1912

These two are long acting barbiturates because their effects last for 12 to 24 hours. day time sedatives and nighttime hypnotics. these don't cause high, so few people take them to get high.

Short acting:

last 6-7 hours

amobarbital (Amytal)

pentobarbital( Nembutal)

hexobarbital( Sombulex)

secobarbital( Seconal)

These behave liek alcohol. 

Very short acting, injection produces immediate unconsciousness

Thiopental( Pentothal) : used as anesthetic for surgical operations

Tolerance for downers on mood are faster than the tolerance for lethal dose. Thus, higher risk of overdose on sleeping pills.

Because their depressant effects are additive, combining alcohol and downers and dangerous.

Some people like to combine downers and stimulants: 

Dexamyl( mixture of amobarbital and dextroamphetamine(Dexedrine))

There area number of nonbarbiturate downers: methaqualone being the most popular ( marketed under brands like : Quaalude, Sopor and Mandrax), less likely to depress the respiratory system, but still there have been reports of death by combining alcohol and methaqualone

Another downer: chloral hydrate  : is the oldest sleeping drug still in medical use. 

Slipped into alcoholic drinks " Mickey Finn" or " knock out drops" used to drug unsuspecting people for kidnapping or robbing them.

Other nonbarbiturate downers include : glutethimide( Doriden), methyprylon (Noludar), ethchlorvynol( Placidyl) and paradehyde. All of these drugs are used as hypnotics.

The most popular downer today is zolpidem( Ambien)

Kinds of Stimulants

Coffee and Caffeine-containing plants

• coffee strong stimulant
• may cause shakiness, headaches 
• will cause dependence

Tea containing L-theanine which causes " alert relaxation"

National drink of Brazil= guarana ( marketed as Zoom and Zing/ containining more caffeine than coffee)

Argentina: mate : from leaves of holly plants

chocolate: from cacao tree, its seeds are cocao beans, fat is cacoa butter, theobromine

Coca and Cocaine

not related to cocao/cocoa

Coca contains 14 drugs, most important of which is cocaine. Coca is a shrub, native to the hot, humid Andes.

Coca users put dried leaces in their mouth and work them into a large wad. They suck on the wad for thirty minutes, and spit out the residue. Must add a bit of alkali( lime) to enhance the effect

Coca contains 0.5 % of cocaine. While refined cocaine is 60% of drug. Snorting powder cocaine irritates the nose, smoking crack is bad for the lung. THe effect is short : 15 to 30 min. After which the users feel sluggish and unhappy

highly addictive such as that of cigarettes.

Amphetamines and related drugsr

synthetic drugs

structures resemble adrenalines and noagrenaline

effect resemble cocaine but longer lasting= 4 hours

more toxic than cocaine because the liver cannot detoxify effectively

types:

1. Plain amphetamines( Benzedrine)
2. Dextroamphetamine( Dexedrine)
3. methamphetamine(Methedrine)
4. methylphenidate( Ritalin)
5. modafinil( Provigil)
6. Adderall(combination of dextroamphetamine and methamphetamine) used for ADHD

explosive growthof methaphetamine: meth, crank. crystalline, smokable form= " ice", " crystal"

hazardous: smoking and injecting

Look-alike drugs:

caffeine 

ephdrine: produces more anxiety and less euphoria than meth

phenylpropanolamine(PPA): used to be in nasal decongestants

synephrine

Tobacco and Nicotine

most dangerous

tolerance for its toxicity develops in the matters of hours( whereas days or weeks for heroin and months for alcohol)

most addictive in the form of cigarrettes, equivalent to crack cocaine and ice

Smokers from cigarettes delivers concentrated nicotine to vital brain centres within a few seconds- faster than heroin injection reaching the brain.

Stimulants

Most common stimulant neurotransmitter= noradrenaline/ norepinephrine which is an endogenous chemical which structure resembles that of hormone adrenaline produced by adrenal gland

Stimulant drugs work by causing nerve fibres to release noreadrenaline and other stimulating neurotransmitters. End result= release of more stimulating neurotransmitters

It makes people feel wakeful alert and often happy

heart beats faster, blood pressure rise.

fingertips and tips ofnose becomes cold

laxative effect

some of these effects are mediated by the sympathetic system( chemical messenger= noradrenaline) which cause the adrenaline secretion by adrenal gland.

pharmacology

Endogenous: endorphins, norephedrine, ephedrine

Natural drugs

• crude forms: resin of Viola tree, cocaine from coca tree
• refined forms: morphine, cocaine, mescaline

Semi synthetic drugs:

2 acetic acid groups to morphine ==> heroin

LSD (lysergic acid diethylaminde) == from lysergic acid( toxic)  from a ergot fungus

Synthetic drugs:

Valium

PCP( Phencyclidine)

Secobarbital( Seconal)

Diogenes

Society has complicated itself. Shouldn't we just go back to self-sufficiency? to being where we would like to be? to being with the essential things of life only?

Human desire has no limit. And since it is limitless and there would be no way to limit it, and in the process of trying to fulfil some of the desire, we are so miserable, why can't we just learn to ignore all those desires? Why must we pursue them at all?

Life is somehow ridden with pretense. Ridden with narcissism manifestated as selfconsciousness. One day,we'll just die. Our lives are so short and significant. Why must we further add on to our misery by going all the way out to trouble our soul to fulfill those forever-unfulfillable desires.

I want to live like Diogenes.Just the bare necessitities of lives. The simpler the better. 

Tired of pretenses all the time.

 

But I must admit that Diogenes is an exhibitionist. One can do b etter without that trait, just live simply. Don't buy, don't spend money on unnecesary things..like sweets, junk food, fruits.. soda..accessories, big houses, cars..

ONe just need shelter= small room.

warmth= blanket and warm clothings

clothings= for decency

one meal per day+ water= bare survival

glasses= to see clearly

some money for medicine

pen and papers

light

utensil

tea

shoes

bags

air

fan

soap and shampoo

things one can live without:

TV

newspapers

junk food, soda, milo, fruits, sweets

cosmetics(just need deodorant)

the rest of the other things

all the emotions and rollercoastal unneccessary of human relationship

people in third world countries have only one meal a day and bare necessities and they can live. Why can't I?

I used to live with grandma when I was young. Before I migrated to another country that is.

I spent all my childhood life with her, not with my mother or my dad. My dad was sick mentally so my mum divorced him and carried me off to take care of me. But because we were poor, mum ventured out to work and left me with grandma.

My mother had a hard life too. She grew up in a big family of six without a proper dad. It was the War in the 1970s that robbed my grandma of her first husband, who was a soldier. When her first husband passed away, she had three children already. And she was in her late twenties. The war dragged on and there was support from anyone. Although her late husband's family was rich, they were landowners, they didn't exactly give grandmamuch money. Partly because of the numerous sisters in-law that grandma had. These people didn't like her.. just the usual hatred between sisters in law.

So grandma left the countryside where she lived with her late husband for the city. Here, she was given a house by the late husband's family to live in. The house was a small one, suffcient for the family of four, grandma and her three children.

The war was cruel. Grandma used to relate how in the same family, her late husband and his brother were at the opposite sides of the war. Her husband was agaisnt the Communist and his brother was for the communist. So somehow the communist or the anti-communist didn't trust the whole family, they plotted and killed the two brothers, separately.

One day, the anti communist husband did not return home after his mission for almost 2 days. Grandma was nervous. The superior people in the army couldn't find him anywhere either. He was a corporal, so when he set out, he brought with him a small unit of 3 to 4 people. None of these people were home either.

So naturally everyone got nervous.

Grandma told us a very incredible story. She told us how she dreamt of grandpa came backin his shorts and told her where he was. He told her that the communists had shot and stripped him and everyone in the unit to their shorts. The communists robbed their uniform so that they can use later on. When grandma woke up, she told the other people where to find their corpses, and indeed, all the dead had only their shorts on them. 

It was incredible. But it was how my grandpa's corpse was found. Sometimes things are just beyond our understanding. The dead may come back. But probably because they have something to tell us. Just as we cannot hear ultrasound, and see infra red light, it's not sufficient to argue that these things do not exist. Maybe we have not really the real mean to detect them.

But that asides, I don't think we should be fearful or let these thoughts occupy our mind all the time. 

Back to my grandma's story. Grandma struggled for many years on. Being a single mother in the war time was not easy. She tried to seek help from her own relatives. .

my beloved grandma

Grieving all the time

I long to go back to sleep the moment I wake up.

In such sleep, or even just a slightly delirious sense, I dream of grandma.The person who loves me most in the world. She has passed away. And Isaw with my own eyes how she died. 

She died from pain. Cancer pain. Almost 4 months after the discovery of her cancer.

Every moment after that discovery was immense pain. I felt like my heart and my guts cut everday. 

I flew back home from overseas. with my mother and my sister. But how I hated my mother. A woman obsessed with money all the time.

When grandma was alive, my mother used my grandma as a tool to help her collect rental money of the many porperties that mother had. Mother is not one who is easily satisfied. She demanded grandma to reportto her regularly, to hand all the money to her. If grandma kept some money herself, mother would torment grandma with sniping words, even vulgarity.

The worst things happened were that mother poisoned my mind during this whole period. I was not exactly too young, to be truthful. But I was of an impressionable age about 12, 13. Mother would tell me how grandma steal her money. How grandma did not hand all the money to her. How, basically , grandma could not placate all the people that mother's rental businesses were relating with.

Mind you, the business was not easy to run, for one thing. Second thing is that grandma was damm old already, she was about sity somethings. She should have been able to enjoy her life. Not being slave to her daughter.

My mum and me were being overseas all of these times and the properties were left in the original country for grandma to run. So most of the time, I lived with mum, and my mind got poisoned by her.

She insisted that life was nothing but greed and dishonesty. She trumpeted generosity and pretended most of the time to display her generosity, but with her lip service only.

The amount that she gave to other people was really insignificant. And always with some ulterior motive. Like she will try to bribe them. etc.

My whole life staying with mother was a mental torment between my innocence and my cynicism and hypocrisy. Mum is full of vulgarity inside her mind. But she acts as if she is the most gentle and peasant-like person on the outside. How I despise her!

Watching my grandma dying is the most horrible thing. Because cancer brings tremendous pain. And for some reason, perhaps senility, my grandma became so fearful of death so much. She was not only physically tortured by the disease. The knowledge that the pain was killing her killed her mentally as well.

When my mum andI were in another country, grandma stayed with my uncle and his family. They had 2 domestic helpers. And 2 children

When I returned to the country to meet my disease--stricken grandma, I was disgusted to see how my grandma was treated by my uncle's family. Grandma couldn't speak probably. Neither could she stand up and walk about freely. I couldn't understand why. perhaps it was the cancer, or perhaps it was depression on my grandma's part.

Anyhow, by the time I reached home, grandma was dirty. She did not bathe for 2 weeks and was covered in filth. Shame on my uncle's family. They had domestic helpers. They are rich.. but they didn't bother with grandma. I was infuriated, especially with my uncle. How he feared his wife. And the domestic helpers bullied my grandma. They treated her like trash, by shouting and ignoring her. They were thinking that she had some senility and her children were not treating her well. WHy should they?

I hated that sight. The sight of my helpless grandma being bullied by my uncle's family. 

How powerful and influential my grandma used to be?What great sacrifice she used to do for her own family? She used to sell her own blood when they were poor, in order to raise the family up in times of hardship. How I hated how they forgot all those things?

tough life

Why do people want so much knowledge for? isn't it just sufficient to be able to think for themselves? 

Is knowing much more improve their chances of staying far from the grave longer? Or is it just a sense of temporary satisfaction, false security and superiority over other people? But such feelings only last for fewer than 10 minutes. Af ter which, a sense of fear to lose what they have will come over them.

How temporary is human's happiness?

How insecure is life!

How long will your loved one love you? As long as you love them and less than that. 

Who is not susceptible to age, sickness and death?

Who knows when sickness and death come to one?

Who can stop those?

Our survival is a constant battle with microorganisms and nature. Laughingly, some people worship nature. They worship their own destructor. Nature just is. No need to worship or abuse. Because these will bring immense inequilibrium.

I am living in the city, but I wish that I canhide in my own cave all the time. No desire to communicate, no desire to socialise. 

Perhaps my own upbringing has caused this. But I have no desire to blame

things i want to do today

clean the desk

fold my clothes

sleep more

exercise aerobic

bid for my modules

stretch pilates

meditate metta

no eating from 1pm till 7am

Some thought

A strong, weird desire surges through my mind today.

What if I don't eat anything at all for 3 days? 

I know that if I can refrain from eating anything past 2 days, their will be a lightheadedness feeling coming over. That kind of feeling is rather addictive even. Like some kinda drugs. It can put people in a weird euphoric state. That may explain why religious people tend to fast

So now, I should put my todo list here, everyday.

By the way, just now I dreamt a strange dream. I saw my dead grandma in my dream at our old house. Then I asked her : Is there God? She said :Yes. Then I became irritated and explained to her that there was probably no God, because if there is really a God, that created human, then who created that God then? That is a paradox in itself. Then she began to keep quiet and acknowledged that I am probably right...

Strange that this God thing has come to my mind. I even dreamt of it. How irritating.

It is probably a struggle between my rational mind to let go of the idea of God and the mind that wants comfort, so it needs to hang on to that thought.Lingering sense of fear as well.Perhaps it's true that indoctrination of untruth by means of threatening of hell fire is scary indeed. A form of psychological abuse. When will that struggle between rationality and cowardice end? 

b*ring

Today is another boring day.

After reading " The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins, I feel so depressed. 

After I read "The Blind Watchmaker"I felt so manipulated. By my genes, that is. I feel like I am a mechanistic construction that is just comparable to the watch I wear. My existence can be compared to that watch's, neither of us existed because we wanted to exist. We came into existence out of our own will. We just exist because of circumstances.

The books were good. Very convincing and rational. I can't really claim Mr Dawkins for my feeling depressed , or for his injecting into my brain some ultimately sad thought and the bottomlessly abysmal void. I used to be an agnostic. Whether or not God existed was none of my business.. and my interest. But after reading his book, I am not an agnostic anymore. Sad

I had no passion in anything. A slight interest in science and books and music.But notmuch, not sufficient to sustain me through the insuffereable periods of uninteresting life episodes that are occasionally marked with pain and joy. Both of which are so temporary and short that my life- in short- is so damn boring. Not that I am complaining.

I feel lucky that life has not dealt me an entirely horrible card: I am not starving, was not abused, had some education, had some kinda so called family, born in a war-free region... Very good indeed, by today's standard.

But there are some facts in life that is so ridiculous.

1. one needs to consume food to be alive, resisting death
2. in order to consume food, one needs to have money
3. to have money, one needs to work 
4. when one works,one spends one's life away
5. spending one's like away is not very different from not being alive
6. so being alive and not being alive is not so different
7. the only certainty is everyone will die
8. in the end,people spend a lot deal of time to resist the unavoidable,in the meantime, struggling a lot

another thing I don't understand:

1. people created the idea of "the economic system"
2. " the economic system" brings recession
3. recession brings unhappiness
4. thus, people created recession and subsequently, unhappiness
5. Why don't they just scrap economic system to obliterate unhappiness altogether?
6. Why must they cling to these darn things"?